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Orang Kata.. Saya Kata

Orang kata anak dara tak baik keluar malam-malam.
Saya kata kalau keluar berteman tak ape :)
Haa.. jangan salah faham. Keluar dengan muhrim yee!
Satu malam tu, saya buat keputusan drastik nak balik. Hujung minggu tu ada program dengan keluarga. Lagipun saya nak teman housemate saya, Farehah, balik malam tu. Alang-alang sehaluan, saya pun temankanlah dia. Kalau saya jadi dia, saya pun takut nak balik sorang-sorang (adelah alasan dia kenapa dia nak balik malam tu). Sepanjang perjalanan kami asyik berborak, dan tak sedar pun masa berlalu. Alhamdulillah, perjalanan terasa pendek, dan rasa macam cepat je sampai. Dan kami sama-sama akui memang takut sebenarnya nak LRT tu sorang-sorang.
Kan dah tak jadi masalah? Alhamdulillah




Orang kata jangan lalu kubur malam-malam
Saya kata kalau tak takut tak ape :)
Lepas hantar kawan kat rumah dia malam tu, saya pun mula gerak balik rumah. Saya ada dua pilihan, nak ikut jalan besar, atau ikut kawasan perumahan. Entah kenapa hati saya kata jalan besar tapi kaki pergi kawasan rumah orang. Saya nak ikut jalan besar sebab nanti kalau ada apa-apa jadi, insyaAllah ada yang boleh tolong. (Ye ke?)
Bila dah jalan ikut AU1C tu, saya dah mula lega, sebab agak banyak jugak kereta lalu-lalang kat situ. Saya rasa selamatlah juga. Dalam hati berdoa sangat agar Allah hindarkan saya dari apa-apa musibah, sebab keluarga tak tau lagi saya nak balik ni. (Bijak kan?) Makin saya jalan, baru saya teringat, kat depan tu ada kubur! Saya tersengih sorang-sorang. Dulu masa jadi exorcist sekolah, hantu ni, memang out lah. Memang saya tak percaya langsung. Sekadar yakin ada makhluk lain yang tak terzahir dengan mata kasar. Sebab, lecturer Physics saya, Miss Suriany ada cakap,
everything in this world has mass. and some masses come from light. ghosts does not exist. if yes, how can it absorb its mass? or does it have any?
Sukahati oranglah nak percaya apa kan? Tapi saya tak percaya ia wujud. Anda?
Bila lalu kat kubur tu, saya pandang. Saya jalan sorang-sorang dalam gelap. Macam mana saudara saya dalam kubur tu? Dengan lampu jalan pun saya dah rasa gelap, macam mana kat alam dia? Dalam hati saya sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk mereka. Moga ada fadhilatnya yang dikongsi, insyaAllah

Orang kata bila balik rumah bagitau family
Saya kata saya dah solat dan doa, tak ape :)
Bila ada perangai macam ni, mulalah kena bebel kat rumah. Dan bila fikir-fikir balik, betul jugak. Karang ada apa-apa jadi mula menyesal kan? Tapi saya dah letakkan pengharapan dan doa saya pada Allah. Jadi saya yakin Allahlah yang lindungi saya malam tu. Kalau tak ada Dia, mesti saya tak ada kat sini jugak.

Tapi sebenarnya, elok ke fikir macam ni? Seharusnya sebagai seorang wanita, saya tak boleh biarkan diri saya berlegar sorang-sorang, malam pulak tu. Dunia ni bukan kita boleh jangka. Sikap macam ni lah yang menggalakkan perkara sumbang kat dunia sekarang ni. Tak gitu? Walaupun kita yakin Allah ada nak tolong kita, tapi sure ke kita ni amalan kita seiring dengan harapan kita tu?

Yang pasti, Allah dah kata
Dan kami pasti akan menguji kamu dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kurang harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan   (Al-Baqarah:155)

Jadi janganlah risau kalau sesekali diuji. Allahlah sebaik-baik penolong :) 

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