Musafir Biru

i was looking for you but you weren't there i was reaching for you but you didn't care i was calling for you but you didn't hear i was standing next to you but you didn't stare i was running to you but you were so far i'm tired and weary i don't have much time left it consumes me from inside and i wish you knew the pain i bear to this day i love you then and i love you still but time is running out and should this be the last understand the depth of what i'm feeling because no matter how much you hurt me I STILL LOVE YOU to my dear friend whom im writing this to..

i love the rain it lets me walk right through it without letting other people know that i'm crying along i love the rain the cold that hugs me tight when my heart is burning from anger i love the rain for it leads me walking alone most wont walk with me afraid to be wet i love the rain isolated from everything only one keeping me company is my own conscience i used to think rain are tears from clouds but now that i know Him i know it's His blessings ye saya suka jalan sorang-sorang dalam hujan. kalau malu ada kawan macam saya, pegi main jauh-jauh ye tiba-tiba ada seorang pakcik dalam kereta besar tanya jalan kat saya tadi. saya kebasahan sebab tak expect akan hujan lebat. dan dia dengan baik hatinya offer saya payung dia. sweeeeetnye Allah, bagi pertolongan melalui hambaNya. I LOVE YOU! yang khilaf itu milikku.

bismillah. hari ni, tiba-tiba teringat satu kisah. perjalanan bersama buah hati-buah hati tersayang. sebenarnya dah lama nak post pasal hari gemilang ni. tapi ada je halangannya. so, today is the day. the day we recall that very gleeful day *teehee* so, one time, saya dan kawan-kawan saya, Cik Lili, Cik Izah, Cik Nana, Cik Zila dan Cik Syasya pergi program kat Setenyeh. Seronok jumpa kawan-kawan. Kawan baru. Setenyeh tu macam sejam jugaklah dari kolej kami. Bila program tu dah habis, kak Yaya yang selalunya hantar kami ke mana-mana sahaja kami mahu (ehem) tiba-tiba bagitau.. akak tak dapat hantar korang balik la kali ni. akak ada meeting say whattttt? habis kitorang nak balik naik ape ni? *sad face*     eh, korang bawak kereta akak dulu. nanti bila akak singgah kolej korang, akak amik balik kereta tu. ok tak? < klik 'read more' eh untuk baca lanjut. cerita panjang ni >

bismillah. there are times when my mind wanders around, and every memory i have around my high school *as people usually say it   comes rushing in like waves. pushing and pulling me deeper into the times where i was up, down and almost gave up. i miss school. i miss school. i miss school. * kuala lipis in particular  when i was in high school, i don't own my own laptop, or my own handphone. heck, we can't even bring it even if we do. i used to think it was a bummer. but come to think of it now, i'm glad. soooo glad. because then, i only live with my friends, my books, my teachers. no connection to the outside world whatsoever. and internet was not a priority at the time. whenever i wanna know something, i ask people. i talk to people. when i get lazy to study, i go to the academic block and talk to everyone. i ran all across the block. i scream, shout, as if everything's mine. * lie hehe anyways. everyday, i tend to pray on time, eat on time (or extra time) i ...

Petang itu mereka anak-beranak masih dengan aktiviti yang sama. Ke taman. Tapi kali ini si ayah mengajar badminton. Setelah penat, mereka duduk sebentar bersama si ibu yang sedari tadi sekadar duduk di tepi. Kepeningan. "Umi okay sikit? Minumlah, umi," ujar Izzah. Si ibu senyum. Semanis mungkin. "Eh, umi okaylah. Nah minum ni," ujar si ibu sambil menghulur air kepada semua anaknya. Selang beberapa ketika, si ayah mengajak anak-anak kembali bermain. Semua bangkit, kecuali si kecil Muaz. "Muaz, jomlah!" ajak si ayah. Muaz sekadar senyum dan menggeleng. "Muaz nak teman umi," lalu kepalanya disandarkan di pangkuan si ibu. "Okay. Muaz jaga umi ya?" pesan yang sulung, Haikal. Muaz mengangguk lagi. [klik 'read more' untuk teruskan membaca]

bismillah. fuh. baru je menjejakkan kaki ke teratak terchenta setelah 3 bulan lebih tinggalkannya. rindu? adelah sikit *big grin. sampai je kat ruang tamu, nampak khemah besar! okay, khemah sebenar bukan warna biru-kuning ni. kaler merah. khemah untuk budak-budak. dan takde tingkap. -.- #yang kat atas ni gambar google je. bestlah khemah ni. rupanya ni khemah ni milik anak sedara bujang dua orang kat rumah ni. tapi open to anyone who wants to enter. pintu khemah sentiasa terbuka *chewah. saya pun ape lagi. jenguklah ke dalam. maklumlah jakun tak pernah dapat masa kecik dulu -.- memang bestla. boleh tidur dalam tu! tengok anak-anak buah hepi je main sama-sama. makcik yang serba-serbi malas ni pun seronoklaaaa tak payah jaga sangat diorang dah syok main tu :) heheh khemah ni agak kukuh strukturnya. tiang support dia boleh tahanlah. kalau baaaaanyak mainan dalam khemah ni, memang takkan tumbanglah.tapi, bila semua mainan kena bawak keluar, main dengan babi...