Secebis Dari Apa Yang Ada

resah
goyah seperti selalu
melangkah lagi dan jatuh kembali

menangis
penat menapak pergi
mencari yang tak pasti

dan aku kembali sendiri
dalam jalan kembara penuh duri
gelintar mana pergi duhai hati

peluh menitik tanpa henti
sinar mentari garang tanpa belas
dan air mata ini jatuh lagi

terduduk aku di tepian
mengharap entah siapa punya ehsan
agar aku dapat lari dari sepi

jalan ini begitu kosong

suram dan kelam tanpa cahaya

dan aku buntu

'ke mana lagi harus kubawa langkah ini?'

langkah longlai

dahagakan petunjuk yang dapat bawaku pulang

pulang ke kampung yang dirindu

terbaring kaku

tanpa arah tuju

mata terus basah dengan air mata

tanpa aku sedar

aku kembali berdiri

ada aura yang menarik aku

dan aku terus berlari

payah

tapi ku gagahi jua

jalan di hadapan dilimpahi cahaya suram

tapi mataku kejap pada duri yang menanti

aku tak mampu berhenti

kerana ayunan ini makin deras

memaksa aku lupakan sepi yang dulu

dan aku yakin

aku akan pergi jauh dari keresahan dulu

aku sabar menapak duri yang mencucuk

luka terus berdarah tanpa menanti untuk sembuh

namun kaki makin kebal melangkah

pandanganku hanya ke hadapan

mahu saja aku cari ke mana aku melangkah

dan makin jauh aku pergi

makin cerah dan penuh warna

kini aku hanya mahu ke hujung jalan

kerana aku pasti di sana akan kutemu kampung halaman

nyahlah kenangan pahit lalu

kerana aku ingin terbang bebas

bebas mencari Dia yang kurindu

bebas hidup tanpa belenggu

penat kadang-kadang menerpa

tapi langkah masih diteruskan

saat kaki kian lemah

sepuluh daktil penuh hina ini kembali mengharap

agar langkah terus terpimpin

agar hati kian teguh mencari jalan pulang

agar jasad ini akan tegar melambai dugaan

aku kini masih menapak

entah bila akan sampai ke hujungnya

tapi aku takkan berhenti

kerana aku tahu

kampungku sudah dekat

#madah pendek perjalanan hidup saya. entahlah ada yang faham atau tak.

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